Why Is She Procrastinating?

Quite sometime back, Ms. SpoolTeacher set to work on getting her garage/studio set up for doing what she has been longing to do for as long as she can remember, creative sewing.

When she turned 62 last June, she was able to access her social security so that she could relax and do these things without the taunt of ‘loosing it all’ hanging over her head. Before that, she had been doing general services for local residents; sewing and alterations, yard and garden work, housecleaning, running errands, taxiing elders to appointments or for outings. Basically she did whatever they needed doing. Benson has a very large elder population with many needs. The sad thing about such an elder group is that she was ‘loosing’ clients on a regular basis.

When Spring rolled around, her passion for gardening took hold and with SS looming in the not too distant future, she dwindled down her ‘outside’ work until she finally had just one client left; one she wouldn’t give up because she really likes them and they really need her.

Her focus was, for that time, all about planting and on advancing the good condition of her planting plots; creating soils with various methods.

When her #GoodNeighbor cleaned up his yard in late Fall, he donated all his collected leaves. One of the best foods for the soil microbiome is leaf mulch and therefore one of the best ways to create good soil. Between his leaves and hers, she had enough to cover all of the major planting plots and have a big wire round full of leaves as well.

That done, she should have been more inclined to start creative sewing. Why is she procrastinating? She’s not sure, but she thinks that she just really needed the time to feel ‘prosperous’, relax and attend to things spontaneously for a change. Her little red-haired doggy is fragile and she spends a lot of time making sure her needs are met. And, life gets in the way; plumbing troubles, computer problems, broken windows to fix. She can’t figure out how she ever held a full time job in the ‘real world’.

Right after Christmas, Walmart was letting the last of their trees go for 2 cents each. People were piling trucks up with them to use for firewood. She brought one home to have an after Christmas-Christmas. Living in #VoluntaryRadicalSimplicity she didn’t spend on a tree when there were so many other things needed, but 2 cents was hard to pass up. She rather enjoys being after the fact; after all the hustle bustle is over, to have a bit of the nostalgia just in a quiet, peaceful way.

After Christmas-Christmas

After Christmas-Christmas

At that same time, she got the bug to sew, but just couldn’t bring herself to go out to the cold garage/studio that was still in need of more organizing; so she cleaned and set up one of her large folding tables in the living room.

Folding table in the living room

Folding table in the living room

You know what happens when there is a surface this big that is empty; it fills itself up.

No sooner did she set the table up, an old client that works at Walmart caught her in the aisle there and with puppy eyes, asked her, “Are you still not doing any sewing?” How could she resist. The bag of clothes is the client’s ‘job’. At the far end is the bags of groceries she brought home and the ‘creative sewing’ project that she brought in as soon as the table was set up.

This tent dress is a dress she made for herself when she was in about 9th grade. She loved the dress and has wanted to remake it. She has a million and one ideas for how to make many copies in various assorted fabrics and with alterations here and there; a lower neckline, taper the armholes in some. She imagines it in sheers of multi-colors that could be worn over a T and leggings.

She follows quite a few wonderful clothing ‘artists’ on Etsy and sees that most of the ones that have good success, have a repertoire of just a few variations on a theme. She wants to do the same. Since this dress is a favorite of hers, easy to make and has great potential for variety, she wants to start here and more forward from this. It just so happens that this dress style also looks good on any body type.

These images are just two of the many artists she thinks do just lovely work with existing things; upcycling is what Ms. SpoolTeacher wants to do and her garage/studio is just overflowing with resources that have been accumulating for years, and years and years.

Time to get with it.

So, just why is she procrastinating? She really doesn’t know. It’s kind of like writers block, but the only way to get over that is to just do it.

TatteredDelicates on Etsy.com

TatteredDelicates on Etsy.com

She wonders if she is afraid of failure. After all of these years of longing, dreaming and imagining what things she will make, may she end up disappointed? Could be. She doesn’t think so though, because she has quite a past of successful creations. Maybe she is afraid of success? Ah, ha! It might be that she fears that if she ends up any good, it will overtake her radically simple existence, one to which she has become quite accustomed. She can’t imagine that that is true either because once she is in a creative zone, it is like being in heaven and not a bit like work. Maybe she is afraid of the neglect that that kind of absorption would have on gardening and caring for her fur babies.

No more excuses. Time to bite the bullet.

One thing she knows for sure is that money has never been the ultimate motivator with regard to anything in her life. She doesn’t mind money, and knows that it is essential to living, darn it; but what has always, always motivated her most is to have the freedom to just be and to do the things she truly loves the most.

So, hopefully, in the not too distant future, she will have some things as wonderful as the items from these artists in her own Etsy shop to show you.

The garage that wants to be a Where Women Create studio

The garage that wants to be a Where Women Create studio

They’re all in here somewhere, just waiting to be put together.

Don’t give up on her.

Thanks for stopping by.

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